onsdag, februari 01, 2012

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Last weekend I was in Bangkok - wasn't so much of a planned trip. But for some rather personal reason; I just had to go. On that specific date, on that specific plane.
A colleague came along with me - because he's planning to meet up with the FAs there. At least he was on the same plane as I am. Else I'm sure I would've gone crazy.

I saw him at the gate. He saw me with my colleague. We texted and eventually bumped into each other. It was hard pretending we were strangers. I caught him looking while we were queueing up at the Immigration in Suvarnabhumi. I was already halfway to the Hotel when I finally read his text asking whereabout I am.

I booked myself into Holiday Inn - thinking it is close to where my colleagues are staying. But I, unfortunately, was dead wrong. It wasn't that close afterall.
No complaints nevertheless. I managed to collect some points for my Membership. And also for my Enrich :) So - double happiness!

I spent the first night in my room. Too lazy, too exhausted (both physically and mentally) to go out - even though I initially planned to meet up with the colleagues for some hardcore partying. Whatever. Ordered satay for late dinner and tucked myself into bed early enough that I found myself awake at the wee hour in the morning.

Went for some shopping at MBK the next day. Got some shirts for Dad, tops/dresses for myself and spent hours oggling at the gadgets. Pampered myself with a new perm and shiny nails ;) Of course - ended up buying cute Bunny tote bag at Siam Discovery. Bliss!

He came to see me late evening - and we went out for dinner. It was great to sit and talk properly again. The last time I saw him was, well, Christimas Eve.
I told him I can't carry on with these shits. And I did tell the truth - it is killing me. He said he'll respect my decision; and all he wanted is for me to be happy. I wanted so much to kick him out of my room. But somehow I found myself crying. So I gave in.

Maybe it's the fact that I hate his job. Maybe it's jealousy. Maybe, even, the fact I have problems trusting after Christoph. I don't know; it's hard to say. I am so confuse. I really need to get my head together and figure out what I want.

Dear God. Can you please, please, please make this easy for me? :)