söndag, juli 17, 2011

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Finally ...



My flat isn't the nicest in the world but fuck it - I'm actually very glad to be home. I miss the familiar feeling of my own comfy bed; I miss curling on the bed with a good book; I miss talking random things with my flatmate on the rare occasions when we'd bump into each other.

If I spend another day in a hospital room (no matter how fancy), I swear, I'd turn insane.



Today is a lovely day ♥
I've never seen such clear, clear blue sky. I felt a sense of peace. Made me smile - feeling less bleak inside. On beautiful days like this - I wish I could change a lot of things. I wish I could undo lots of mistakes.

On beautiful days like this - I wish I could go back to being the person I was all those years ago; the happy self I miss very much. Last weekend was the closest I felt to being that old Ninie. Last weekend I was able to look at someone in the eye, said "I love you" and actually meant what I said.

Our story is complicated. I don't like complications. I have no idea why he appears in my life on days like these.

Maybe, just maybe, God has a good reason of sending him over ...
Maybe, just maybe, God doesn't want me to give up on things just yet ...

I wish I have answers to my own questions. Oh well.